~The Lies that hold us back~
What are you afraid of? I didn’t even realize fear was such a big issue for me until this last month. I guess I was sitting comfortably in my routine but holding myself back from things because of fear. Fear of failure, fear of change, fear of disappointing myself and fear of disapproval from others. As mother’s we all experience fear. Sometimes, it rocks us to the very core and controls our every waking move. I’ve always felt that because of my faith I was in a good place with fear. I don’t have anxiety about things that are out of my control such as the yearly stoamch flu, earthquakes or acts of God. What really baffles me is the fact that I’m afraid of the things I think I can control and it’s almost always out of the concern for how it will affect others.
I have a passion for fitness and health. I want to help women feel their best. I want to be healthy and strong for my kids. I want to be an example of a Godly women who honors her body. This past month I have grown so much just by putting myself out there for others to see. It has been scary. I have wondered if people will think I’m obsessive or have an addiction to social media. I have made up stories in my head about how I feel I am perceived and let sneaky little self lies steal my joy.
We have got to stop doing this to ourselves. Telling ourselves we can’t do something unless its perfect and holding back because we are afraid we may fail. As I continue to grow in faith I’m discovering how my fitness journey is connected to this. I push myself hard in the gym and am picking up the barbell even though I’m often afraid of it. I’m adding weight and pushing myself and trying until I fail. Every time I smile because I did it. I did it for me and I can do hard things, impossible things through the one who strengthens me.
~I can do all this through him who gives me strength~